Awkward/Awesome Thursday

This picture.. AWKWARD

Awkward:

1.) Attempting to hold a sheet of paper still so the kid I babysit could show off his "karate" skills and slice the paper. Instead I drop it three times before holding it steady.

2.) Having the four year old boy you babysit ask if my shirt is new. "Yeah it is." I told him while thinking, "Awh how cute he noticed." He pointed to my shirt and said "Thought so." I looked down and realize that the itty bitty size sticker is still on it.

3.) The fact that number two has happened before. With the same kid last year.

4.) Realizing that I wore the same (men's) sweater four days in a row because it was so comfy. pictured above

5.) Having my physical therapist tell me that she had a seventy year old patient who has better neck mobility then me.

6.) Having my mom read portions of her journal from around the time she met my dad to me.

7.) Spending Saturday night with a bunch of strangers and not knowing what to say or do.

8.) Awkward mumbled conversations with my massage therapist during my massage.

Awesome:

1.) Calling my aunt spur of the moment and singing some old song to her way off key with my mom.

2.) Finally finished cleaning up my sewing room and setting it up.

3.) Finishing my first official refashioning project.

4.) Getting massages three times a week at the chiropractor.

5.) The fall colors are at the perfect stage right now.

6.) Being told that at the end of this week ill be a fourth a way done with school for the year.

7.) Getting my herpts appliance off. One more step towards freedom from braces.

What's "Being Yourself"?

We all say we want to be different.
We want to be outside the mainstream.
Original.
Unique.
Everyone says we don't want to change ourselves for the world.
We all want to be different.
But we're all being different the same way.
That's not unique.
That's not original.
It's almost as if "original" and "being yourself" is the new trend.
We all look the same as we're being "ourselves".

I think the reason why we do this is because we don't know who we are yet.
We don't know what our style is.
We see a style we like, we try it out.
We like a trend, we imitate it.
We admire and look up to someone so we copy them.
But I think this is a good thing.
To a certain degree of course.

We're experimenting, we're creating our own style.
As we dabble in different trends, and hobbies we'll soon create our own balance.
And everyone will end up a little different.
We find out what we like, what feels right, what fits right for us.

But be careful as you dabble in the trends of today.
Because it will be thrown into the collaboration you become.
Maybe a lot, or perhaps just a little bit, hardly noticeable.
But it'll still be there.

So go dabble, go experiment.
All the while you're becoming your own original person,
A collaboration of everything you love and are and tried.

Much love.
Natalia