I'll Smile

"some say with age that a purpose comes clear
i see the opposite happening here
are we losing the fight?
are we growing backward in time?"
- the avett brothers

Today I was looking over some pictures that never made it into my "Photography Folder 2012" and yet I couldn't muster up the courage to push the delete button. With all these pictures there is something a little 'off' with. Blurry, no subject, mis-focused, over-saturated, or maybe grainy. Yet there's something about these pictures that makes it difficult- even impossible to part with them. Maybe it's the memory that flashes through your mind while looking at the photo. Perhaps it's the feeling or emotion that drifts over you as you glance at the 'mistake' picture. It's almost like I have a bond with all my photos- as odd as that may sound. So into a new folder they go.. The "Undeletables" and there they shall stay until someday I stumble across them again. I'll remember those happy moments again and feel those warm, fuzzy emotions all over again. And I'll smile.

Much love - Talia

Just a picture and a quote.

Thinking on these things recently..

 Dont hold to anger, hurt or pain. They steal your energy and keep you from love. 

Some of the most draining emotions are those with negative connotations, such as anger, hurt or pain. Holding on to these emotions for long amounts of time may mean that you tire more quickly, and are only able to give focus to love and the rest of your life for the moments that you aren't feeling emotionally drained from being angry, and being hurt.

Instead of letting a bad situation get you down, you must learn to make the best out of this bad situation. Take the memory of why you are angry, or why you are hurting on the inside and try to understand it to better your life. Use the memory of your pain to help deter you from situations that will cause you similar heartbreak in the future, because sure enough if you allow similar people and similar situations to creep back into your life they most certainly will. 

Source

I've Been Thinking..

I'm not the person I wish I was. Sometimes I feel so happy and content and feel as I'd everything is going great. Other times -such as now- I feel discontent. Like the sea, I'm constantly changing from calm to ill. I feel lost. I feel confused. I feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. When I think about what I really want or what I feel 'homesick' for, I can't come up with an answer. That leaves me even more bewildered, confused and discontent.

Of course there are always those days when I feel good. My journal will have lyrics like this written in it,

"Today the sun is shinin' on me
Sitting with my feet in the breeze
Ain't sweating the little things
And who knows what tomorrow is gonna bring
But today, the sun, shinin' on me"

But other days it contains,

"I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed"

Sometimes I'll have both of those entries in one day. Even, half hour apart.

What am I looking for? I don't know, all I know is where I'm looking it probably isn't where it's at. I am truly trying to focus on what I am thankful for, not what I wish was different. I am truly trying to focus on what I like about myself, instead of comparing myself to others who "have it all". We're all unique, I need to remember that more often. Just because words, music or sports aren't my strong points in life doesn't mean I'm not special. I have gifts and talents no matter how hidden they might be.

I'm also focusing on the one word, simple. I like simplicity, I crave it. But it's not simple to simply create simplicity. I want to declutter everything! My personal spaces, my style, my mental life, my emotional life, my schedule.. More on that topic later.

There are so many thoughts swirling in my head at the moment. Sorry for the rambling ha!

Much love.

Summer Plans

I haven't had time to even think about summer let alone stop and plan what I'd like to do. But somehow along the way, my summer planned itself..

My mom was just telling me what I will be doing all summer and it was like woah I knew I would be busy, but I didn't realize just how busy I'll be. 

First off, I'll be doing math and science (my least favorite subjects) all summer. I'll also have my usual weekly guitar lessons. Then starting on the 11th I'll be babysitting for the same lil dude I have for the past three years. BUT it will be four days a week, instead of the normal two. I'm looking forward to it, but it'll make my schedule hectic! 

Another thing I'm looking forward to is fair. I love fair, like adore would be a better word. I could gush about it for paragraphs and paragraphs but I'll spare you the torture (how nice of me, I know, I know) and like every year I babysit for the lil dude while his family is showing animals. So fair week, I literally live at the fairgrounds (not complaining about that) 

With fair comes 4-H, and this year I'm doing two photography boards, and one salon print. Along with this, I have to go to a week of photo shoots next week. Not only do i start babysitting full time next week, have photoshoots all week, I also have tennis camp. And in July I'll have volleyball camp.

For me, during the school year I think of my summer as my time of freedom so I'll be mentally making a list of ALL the things I'll do "in the summertime". Sadly, from what I see I'm going to have other more important priorities, and my lovely list shall be trashed. But, knowing me, I'll still try to squeeze in some of my "summer goals" into my busy schedule.

Some of my goals this summer are..

1.) Get super good at the guitar

2.) Finish purging my bedroom and decorate it (I moved in a year ago, and still havent put up a single decoration)

3.) Get good at self portraits with the self-timer and tripod

4.) Take amazing pictures of the fair this year (Last year i was to busy riding the rides and being lazy to take pictures #SadMoment)

5.) Graduate 10th year science and math (grrr!)

6.) Start blogging more regularly (I got an app for my iPad so hopefully it'll be more practical for me to post)

7.) Buy an iPod touch and take more candid shots of my lil dude

The list goes on and on and on, but I'm getting lazy so that's all for now. So, I'll leave you with a picture

Much love,

-Talia-

xoxo

                           

Random Ramblings

Okay so here is my promised post :)

1. I have watched a LOT of soccer this week.

 -My brother has had three soccer games this week

Yep that's him with the tongue hanging out ;)

-And our friend Diego had a soccer game last weekend

1. I've painted my nails like three times! Thanks to my friend Maggie who got me addicted to Nail Art :P

Tutorial for Leopard print

Tutorial  for the Water Marbling

2. Today we went to a outlet mall nearby 

with our Spanish friends :) and came home to 

find this:

Somebody left the door open and our dogs went in and
found a trash bag full of trash :P

3. My newest addiction is Pinterest 

(btw I wouldn't mind followers). 

Here are some of my faves:

Isn't this cute?! Pinned here

I want some of these. Pinned here

I want one, or two or three :D Pinned here

Love, love, LOVE! Pinned here

Okay that's enough for now. I gotta go catch some zzz's. My aunt and uncle are coming tomorrow and I plan to have a great rest of the labor day weekend :D Have a great weekend :)

Love,

Natalia